this is really selfish but
why can’t mental illness be like any other kind of sickness where you go to hospital and your loved ones come and give you flowers and tell you that they love you and hold your hand and make sure you get better
why doesn’t that happen instead of awkward silences and embarrassing tears and messy bedsheets and a bunch of other stuff no one actually talks about
w h y
I can’t find a single selfish thing in that.
Because no matter how much someone wants to stop self harming, the temptation is always there.
It pisses me off that I won’t be able to get a gun to protect myself because of gun control laws & people with mental illness.
But then I think…
If I ever had to kill myself I would just use that gun.
So its probably a good thing that I can’t get my hands on a gun.
When you get fed up of waiting for a page to load so you close it and in the split second that you do you can see the page has fully loaded but it’s too late